Chapter 15

Degrees of Freedom
Book 2–The Patua’ Heresy
© 2025 Mary C. Simmons

The Hazja

Andy and Jayzu left the Treehouse, with JoEd riding on Jayzu’s shoulder and Sugarbabe on Andy’s. I smiled at the picture they made. Charlie rides on mine when I am out walking, and has done so for as long as I can remember. He’s been with me my entire life, even if only in my heart—during the time I was imprisoned at Rosencranz and hidden deep in the Graying, though I don’t remember anything about that place.

It’s almost as if I had died and was reborn on Cadeña-l’jadia. Charlie and Andy tell me I’ve been here less than two weeks. But I am much older than two weeks! Charlie told me I was at Rosencranz for more than 20 years! I have no idea about that, but I was shocked to learn that I am 42. I don’t feel any different, so it doesn’t really matter.

Last birthday I remember was my 17th. Estelle was angry that I dropped out of high school, so I didn’t get a cake or presents or anything like that—except for my father, Casimir—when Estelle wasn’t looking, he said ‘Happy Birthday’ and gave me his traditional wink as he slipped me a $20 bill. 

I have Charlie again. I hope we are together forever, Charlie and I. And JoEd. And Rika. And the kreegans. And a Treehouse to live in! What could be more wonderful?

Today, Charlie has some Archive duties, and so he left around the same time as Andy and Jayzu. Charlie is the new Chief Archivist, he told me. Starfire left that position to become Aviar of the Great Corvid Council when the former Aviar, Old Hookbeak, fell off his roost and joined the Continuum. Starfire says we all return to the Continuum when we die. 

“We don’t have special places for good corvids and bad corvids,” he says. “We all return to the Continuum—some with consciousness, most without.”

I have no idea how a raven knows this, but these birds are certainly wiser than most of the yoomuns I have encountered. 

“What does the Chief Archivist do?” I had asked. I barely knew what an archivist is—something about keeping records.

“The Archivists catalog and store things in the Great Lattice,” Starfire said. “Births , deaths, where bird flu is rampaging and such like. We also keep track of the Patua’—like yourself. And the Captain.”

“What about Jayzu?” I asked. “Isn’t he Patua’?”

“Yes he is,” Charlie said. “But we didn’t know that until he suddenly showed up on Cadeña-l’jadia a few months ago. Surprised us all.”

“Indeed,” Starfire grunted as he readjusted his wings. “Understand that we corvids have kept track of Patua’ for millennia. But once in awhile someone un-attached to our Great Lattice shows up. Which is wonderful in its way.”

“Great Lattice…” I murmured. “Where is that?”

“Everywhere and nowhere,” Starfire said.

“Everyone has a lattice,” JoEd piped up. “It’s how we remember stuff and keep track of things.”

“Do I have a lattice” I asked, looking at the ground and frowning. “Where is it? Why can’t I remember anything before a few days ago? Is everything gone?”

“Yes, you have a lattice,” Charlie said. “We believe it was damaged during your years at Rosencranz.”

“Where is my lattice?”

“Inside your head!” JoEd shouted gleefully.

I stared at the ground, trying to locate my lattice inside my head. I can sense my thoughts, and things around me, but I don’t see a lattice.

“What does it look like?”

“You can’t see your lattice, or even the Great Lattice,” Starfire said. “Unless you are in the Mildornia Trance.”

Mildornia. I made a face. Horrible bitter memory of its taste, and the extremely strange dreams—more like visions. Little reddish purple mouth opening and closing, eating fireflies with colorful electric tails.

Charlie tells me they use mildornia to put the Keepers into an altered state so they can see the Great Lattice that is connected to the lesser Lattices we all have inside our own heads. The Great Lattice is where our histories and memories and learning live—and it never dies. Usually we only remember our own personal histories or learning. 

“Which is why the Great Corvid Council established the Mildornia Trance,” Charlie said. “Hundreds and hundreds of years ago. So they can keep all the memories of everyone in one place—the Great Lattice.”

 Only the Archivist and the Keepers in the Mildornia Trance can enter the Great Lattice, but no one else can without proper training, or mildornia. But anyone can access their own Lattice—if they eat mildornia.

Charlie and Starfire think I ate just enough mildornia to ‘see’ my own lattice, but not enough to access memories.

“But,” Starfire said, “the visions you describe after eating a single berry resemble both our individual lattices as well as the Great Lattice

“Most of the time,” Charlie said, “memories that are not remembered still exist in our own lattice.

“True,” Starfire said. “We have connected lost memories of some of our species to their individual lattices. I have found records in the Great Lattice that indicate the ancient Patua’ used the Mildornia Trance on themselves. With a little more research into the Great Lattice, I will find the proper dosage of mildornia for yoomuns—for you, Charlotte.”

JoEd has been in Keeper Training, he proudly told me that he will soon go under the Mildornia Trance and enter the Great Lattice. But much as I want to remember what I have forgotten, I have no desire to eat mildornia again—the bitter taste of that one berry remains in my memory.

“We ferment the berries,” Charlie said, as if he knew my thoughts. “Which makes it somewhat more edible.”

“You still puke it up,” JoEd said.

Unhelpful. I hate puking under all circumstances, but the mildornia retching was the worst. Eager to move on, I said: “So, why do you go into the Great Lattice? What do you do there? What do you see?” 

“Hmmphhh,’ Starfire grunted. “Everything that has happened since the Beginning is stored in the Great Lattice, such as events of interest among the crows and ravens. Not just on this island, but many things outside that are important. We also record certain events of yoomun activities—history you might say. Things that need to be remembered.”

“Everything?” I asked. “The Great Lattice must be huge.”

“Huge yet can fit inside a raven brain with room to spare,” Starfire said. “The Great Lattice does not need space, as it does not exist in the familiar dimensions of the universe as we know it.”

 “How did you ever learn how to do this?” I asked, amazed.

“The ancient Patua’ taught our species many thousands of years ago,” Starfire said. “We alone carry the Great Lattice—after the Patua’ diaspora that sent them all over the Earth. We know of know yoomun who knows the ways of the Mildornia Trance, nor the Great Lattice.”

“So,” I said. “Nothing is ever lost?”

“Nothing is ever lost in memory,” Starfire said. “We have found that memory loss—or dislocations as we call them—are the result of broken filaments within the individual’s lattice. The Great Lattice is another story however—as we emplace data—memories of events, if you will. The Great Lattice does not encompass the memories of any of us—including the Keepers.”

“Filaments?” I said, frowning. 

“Your fireflies,” Starfire answered. “These filaments—threads—connect all the pockets of memory—we call them ‘nodes’ together. In this way, memory is quite circular, and one memory is always connected to other memories. In this way, memories can usually be restored by re-routing.”

“We think you have forgotten so much,” Charlie said, “because of broken filaments in your lattice. If the filaments are broken, the nodes are disconnected and un-remembering happens. But we have found that the memory is never gone, it is only unconnected.”

“Under the Mildornia Trance, our Keepers know well how to reattach and restore what is broken or missing,” Starfire said. “This is the first skill they learn.”

My head ached trying to visualize my lattice, with Keepers inside fixing my broken filaments. I imagined the Keepers using some strange tools that emitted blue light, fastening filament to node.

“But first,” Charlie said, “they have to perform filament repair on each other. Only then do we train them on the Great Lattice. See, everyone forgets things—yoomuns, crows, ravens. Like hatching; no one remembers what it was like to peck our way out of our orbs. So the Keepers-in-training re-attach the filaments connected to each others hatchings, so they remember being born into this world. Most everyone, including yoomuns, forget the birth experience.”

“True,” Starfire rumbled. “These are not pleasant memories. Birth is painful.”

A familiar voice…Rika’s… whispered across my mind: Some things you can’t unsee.

Fascinating. Someday maybe I will try it. When I forget the horrible taste of mildornia, and the aftermath of puking and the terrible thirst and the dreams I did not understand. For now, I will consider why I need to remember anything. 

Today, I am in a Treehouse with Rika and the kreegans. With a backpack of food that Jayzu brought. I suppose I would like to remember how I know him, butI am more curious about the little cabin that Jayzu said Bruthamax lived in over a hundred years ago.

 I fell in love with the cabin as soon as I entered. Charlie had described it perfectly—though he told me I had spent a night here, I don’t remember. Shelving on the wall held a small stack of clothing, some canned food, and a couple dishes. A small table with one chair next to a small wood stove—only one chair for the hermit. 

The bed looked like any bed made of medium-sized logs. I flopped down on the mattress, the dried leaves crunching beneath me. I could spend my life here. 

But first, food. 

 I rose and left the cabin, intent on the backpack full of food.

“This should do you for a couple days,” Jayzu had said. “Though I will be back this afternoon with more, so eat as much as you want.”

I dug into the backpack as soon as they left and pulled out the first thing I saw. Cookies! My stomach rumbled and, I ate one straightaway.

“Plenty of room in the cabin, dearie,” Rika said, “for whatever you don’t eat.”

I nodded, another cookie between my teeth as I emptied the rest of the food onto the floor of the deck. I planned on eating everything.

Thirsty, I took a water bottle stuffed into one of the pockets out, wrapped in a leather cord. When I unwound the cord, a strange black object dangled and swayed in front of my face. I stopped its swinging, and gazed at the fine carvings on the oval-shaped thing, depicting  a yoomun hand on one side clasping a crow wing on the other.

Familiarity overtook me. All strangest about the object disappeared.

I had one of these long ago. What was it doing in Jayzu’s backpack?

Mesmerized, I turned it over and over in my palm, and it seemed to get very warm. The air around me started to sparkle and swirl as if the sun reflected its light through a million tiny floating crystals. All the crystals began to align and connect, forming vibrating bonds that crackle as they undulate, circling me, the Treehouse, the forest beyond. 

Within seconds, the deck disappeared from underneath me, yet something still supports my prone body.

I hear someone screaming a litany of obscenities.

It is me.

Jayzu is gone

The Captain cruised the Waterfront for an hour past the time Jayzu said he’d be back. He called and texted him numerous times with no answer. He sent out Sugarbabe to see if any of the Downtown crows had seen the priest.

He walked the few blocks to St Sophia’s with Sugarbabe riding on his shoulder. He pulled open the gigantic ornate carved door to the Cathedral and stepped inside. 

Frankincense hung in the air inside the cool, semi-dark interior. Movement up near the opulently furnished, gold-encrusted altar caught his attention. Someone sweeping the floor looked up when he walked in. The doors were always open during the day for whoever wanted to come and pray or whatever, so the janitor paid no mind to the visitor—not even to the crow on his shoulder which was not an unusual sight in Ledford—and went back to sweeping.

He left the dark cathedral and squinted as the bright sun stung his eyes. He walked around to the back of the cathedral and knocked on the door loudly and repeatedly until someone answered. He explained who he was to the Monsignor’s housekeeper, and asked if Father Manzi was on the premises. She had to go and ask the Monsignor.

“No sir,” she said to the Captain. “He left right after the funeral Mass.”

“Did you see him leave?”

“No, sir,” she said and started to close the door.

“Is Father Thomas Majewski here?” the Captain asked.

She looked sideways for a moment and said, “He just left too. I don’t expect him to return until maybe tomorrow. Shall I tell him you called?”

“No, thank you, Ma’am,” the Captain said and tipped his hat.

He walked to the nearest grocery store in the unlikely event that Jayzu was somehow obliviously grocery shopping for the past two hours. He returned to his boat and called Jayzu again. No answer.

“Jayzu’s done gone,” Sugarbabe said, as she waited for him at the boat. “Not on his own two feet though.”

“What does that mean?” The Captain said and gave the crow a peanut.

“They said he was carried out, like a sack of rocks,” Sugarbabe said, after she beaked the peanut. 

“And?” The Captain said as he opened his palm to another peanut, then closed it.

“Ya,” she said. “They carried him out and stuffed him into a blue car. They took him away. Don’t know where.” She nuzzled his closed fist.

He opened his hand and flipped  her the peanut.

“Who took him away?”

“Don’t know.” She stared at his hand as if he was concealing a peanut from her. “Men in black.”

The Captain stayed around the Waterfront as long as he could, but as the sun began to kiss the horizon, he started back to the island. River law was such that boating was not allowed after sunset. Might as well not tempt them. He pushed off and headed back.

There was nothing else to do but return to the island and tell Charlie that Jayzu had disappeared. Which could only mean one thing—that someone knows Charlotte is on the island and defenseless. Not that Jayzu could defend her against a police force…

Fortunately, no one can get to the island by water without the Captain—but they’d have to catch him first. He would refuse. Unless they dropped ninjas out of a helicopter, Charlotte would be relatively safe. 

But he wouldn’t leave Charlotte alone tonight.

At the moment of sunset, he docked at the Sanctuary when JoEd flew onto the railing of his boat. He’d looked everywhere for Jayzu, he’d told the Captain. No Jayzu, but he did find out some things from Floyd and Willy.

JoEd had met up with the two cousins in the park adjacent to St Sophia’s.

“You guys seen Jayzu?” he had asked them.

“Not recently,” Willy said. “Why?”

“Welp,” JoEd said, “he’s gone missing.”

“What?” Floyd said, looking up from the bag of half-eaten fries he was standing on. “Where’d he go?”

“Dunno,” JoEd said, shrugging his wings. “That’s why I’m asking if you’ve seen him. See, after the Bunya’s death ritual at the church, Jayzu was s’posed to go back to the Waterfront. Me’n the Captain, and Sugarbabe—we waited and waited, but he never showed up. No one knows anything, hardly and he’s just…gone.”

“Like, disappeared without a trace?” Willy said

“Vanished into thin air?” Floyd said.

“Like he evaporated?” Willy said.

“Seems so,” JoEd said. “You guys seen anything lately?”

“Like what?” Willy said. “We see lotsa things.”

“We like to spy on stuff,” Floyd said.

“Who you been spying on?” JoEd asked.

“Welp,” Willy said, “we used to spy on the Bunya until he went and kicked the bucket.”

“Yep,” Floyd said, “then we had to find something else to spy on.”

“So we went to Downtown,” Willy said.

“To the churchyard,” Floyd said.

“Ya,” Willy said. “And guess who we saw?”

“I dunno,” JoEd said, and beaked another French fry. “Tell me.”

The cousins looked at one another and said in unison: “Father Big.”

“Ya, and he’s got a big office with a window right there in the church place.” Floyd said.

“And,” Willy said, “so we hung out on his window spying, same as we did at the Bunya’s house.”

The two crows snickered.

“Father Big,” Floyd said, “he don’t like that. He hates crows.”

They guffawed loudly.

JoEd almost flew away, but stopped when Floyd said, “neither did that other guy—what was his name?”

“Jools,” Willy said.

“Ya, Jools,” Floyd said. “The Bunya’s solicitor, I believe they call him—he hates crows too.”

“Lawyer,” Willy said.

“Oh yeah,” Floyd said. “Attorney at Law, that’s what Jools is. We don’t like him either.”

“Nope,” Willy said. “We spied on Jools a lot. He loves orbs more than anything.”

“Ya,” Willy said, “everyone knows that.”

“And we followed him to the Bunya’s death ritual,” Floyd said, “and when didn’t come out, we naturally flew up to Father Big’s window. And there he was, Jools and Father Big.”

 With Sugarbabe on his left shoulder where she always rode, and JoEd on his right, The Captain walked briskly to the Treehouse. They found Charlotte sitting on the deck with several kreegans in her lap. She  stroked their feathers in turn with one hand, while the other remained clenched; she was holding something in her fist. She looked up when the Captain came through the hole in the deck with two crows on his shoulders, but said nothing. 

Her face betrayed enormous bewildered sadness, and the little ones were unusually quiet. He sat down next to her without speaking, never being the one who broke silence. But JoEd was having none of whatever had enveloped Charlotte and the kreegans

“Jayzu has disappeared!” JoEd said after leaping off the Captain’s shoulder and planting himself square in her lap. 

The displaced kreegans squeaked their displeasure as they scattered, but they didn’t try to reclaim their space. JoEd had seniority, being older. So they went about play -fighting and teasing each other with silly insults.

“You were never hatched,” one of them said to another. “You were just puked up.”

“Ya!” Another kreegan agreed. “With the worms!”

The kreegans exploded with raucous laughter.

Charlotte did not reply to JoEd’s information, but began stroking his feathers as she had the younger kreegans. After several minutes, she turned to the Captain and said:
“Where is my daughter, Andy?”

Father Big

After many years, it seemed, I found myself sitting on a deck in a treehouse with many crows perched around the railing—or in the tree, or flying around dive-bombing unknown objects on the ground. Charlie’s kreegans—I know most of their names—were especially fond of my lap.

I stroked their heads with one hand and held the hazja in the other. I felt its pulsating vibrations generating swirling currents of my life—memories that I had forgotten during my long years at Rosencranz. I remember now why I was there. 

My 17th birthday has faded into to the distant past. I have a daughter older than that. 

The hazja might be mine, actually—it was taken from me just before the birth of my daughter. This one is so similar it could be mine, but I don’t know how or why Jayzu had it.

Jayzu. I remember him now, how he came to Rosencranz and spoke with me, in the only language I was willing to speak. The language of the crows—the Patua’. He showed me how to run away to Andy’s boat on the big river, which brought me here.

I have many questions to ask Jayzu. The hazja…

Andy came back from the city without Jayzu. The crows were quite upset, and all spoke at once:

“Where’s Jayzu, Cap’n?” “Why didn’t Jayzu come back?” “When’s he comin’ home?” Where’d he go?” “When’ll he be back?”

Andy told us everything he knew, including that Jayzu had been carried, unconscious to a blue car and taken away.

“And Father Big watched from his window,” Sugarbabe said.

“Who are you talking about?” I asked. “Who is Father Big?”

“It was FatherBig!” Sugarbabe hollered. “Jayzu’s boss!”

I frowned toward her, and then at Charlie. “His boss?” 

“Yes,” Charlie said. “Jayzu has a boss he calls Thomas,” Charlie said. “He’s been here to the island—and told Jayzu about you at Rosencranz.”

“Jayzu’s boss knew I was at Rosencranz?” The frown on my face deepened. “How did he know that?”

After a brief silence Charlie said: “Father Big is Father Thomas Majewski, Charlotte. Your brother.”

Dead silence fell. Even the roar river seemed to go quiet as I fully remembered that day Tommy had me dragged off my little island with my arms tied around my back. To Rosencranz. Where my daughter was born.

I shoved the memory back down before I exploded with the anger and terror of that day. If Tommy took Jayzu away today, he could come for me tomorrow.

“Where did Tommy take him?” I asked as calmly as I could through clenched teeth.

No one spoke.

Andy, Sugarbabe, and JoEd stayed overnight on the deck at the Treehouse with me. Charlie and Rika were up in the tree with their kreegans. I felt safe enough during the night. But what would tomorrow bring? Would Jayzu return? Or would Tommy come for me?

Neither possibility could eclipse my need and desire to find my daughter. I remember the day we faced each other, and how she sang the song that I often heard as a child. And then she disappeared. And Jayzu denied she was there…

I want to ask him about that also.

“Andy,” said as we looked up at the stars that winked through the leaves and branches above them. “I need to find my daughter. Will you help me tomorrow?”

“Yes,” he said. “Since we can’t find Jayzu…yes.”

Two scenarios played through his head. Should he bring Jade to the island? Or take Charlotte into the city? Or somewhere else where no one would think to look?  Both ideas seemed risky and dangerous. 

In any case, he’d need some help, some backup to pull anything off, as he was sure the police would somehow come looking for her on the island. Maybe they’d probably try to arrest him on the river.

Ha! He snorted as he rolled over.

I never get caught.

The Homecoming

Jade stood up from weeding the vegetable garden and pulled her ringing cell phone from her back pocket. 

Russ. He’s due back tomorrow.

She smiled and tossed her blonde curls back as she brought the phone to her ear, and said, “Russ! Are you okay? Are you back home? Or still at the airport? Do you need me—”

She heard him laugh at the other end—that familiar warm sound that she’d forgotten. In spite of the many moments she’d spent being angry with Russ for accusing her of hallucinating her mother, she really missed him. 

The way he laughed. The way he smelled when she buried her face into his shoulder. She couldn’t wait to see him.

“Almost,” Russ said, his voice sounding happy but tired. “I’m in Miami. Where are you?”

 “I’m at the farm,” she said. “They just started the harvest, but if you need me to, I can—”.

“No, that’s ok,” he said, “Our flight lands in a ridiculous 3:23 a.m. tomorrow,” Russ said. Or today, or whatever day it is. Or will be.”

Jade bit her lip, her joy dissipating. Our flight.

“I don’t need you to drive in from the farm. I’ll just take a taxi home. I call you when I wake up back in our own time zone.”

Will she spend the night at our house too?

“Oh, okay,” Jade said, relieved she didn’t have to get up in the middle of the night and drive to the airport. But… “What about Vinnie?” She tried to make her voice sound normal, like Vinnie was his sister, or just some random colleague.

“She’s going home too,” Russ said. “Her wife is picking her up.”

Her wife?

Jade nearly dropped the phone. All that angst…it was hard not to burst out laughing at her foolishness. They chatted for a few more minutes about his flight, the trip, how glad they both were he was on his way home. 

“Love you, babe,” Russ said. “See you soon!”

“I can’t wait!” Jade said. “Love you too.”

After they rang off, Jade rolled the words ‘Her wife is picking her up’ around in her head, smiling. “Russ is coming home,” she said to Old Blue WillowB.

Which home? Jade wondered, finally. The farm had completely engulfed her; it was hard to imagine going back to their house in the city suburbs. She couldn’t very well manage a farm from a distance. And she couldn’t just walk away from it like it was a rental or a hotel.

Russ won’t want to live here. And I don’t want to live in the city.

After a light dinner and a cup of hot chocolate on the porch, Jade started to nod. Several episodes of jerking her head up from falling sideways, she yawned, picked up her dishes and went inside. Dishes in the sink could wait til morning, she was too tired to do anything but undress, put on her nightgown and drop into bed.

She fell asleep mere seconds after her head hit the pillow. Her mother’s melancholy voice singing into the wind wove in and out of her dreams. Great Aunt Lizzie’s voice arose and sang with her—the same verse over and over again: 

Will you go, Lassie go?

Jade sat up suddenly, switched the lamp on its lowest brightness. Moments later a mist appeared, and hovered for a few seconds within the scent of lavender. Great Aunt Lizzie’s face coalesced from the billowing mist, followed by her willowy body attired in pale green velvet dress, with cream-colored lace at her throat and wrists. She was, as always, the portrait of elegance.

“He’s gone,” Great Aunt Lizzie said, her voice undulating as if she were underwater. “He’s been taken away.”

“What? Who’s gone? Who took him?” Jade swung her legs over the edge of the bed and reached for her robe.

“Another Father.”

“Alfredo’s father is gone?” Jade said. “What are you talking about?”

“For heaven’s sake, child,” Great Aunt Lizzie said as she leaned toward Jade. “Wake up!”

A sudden gust of chilly wind from Great Aunt Lizzie’s general direction blew Jade’s hair backwards for a few seconds.

“Now, let’s try this again,” Great Aunt Lizzie said. “Jayzu’s gone. He was taken away by someone working for Father Big.”

“Who’s Father Big?” Jade said, yawning as she struggled into her robe.

“Father Thomas Majewski,” Great Aunt Lizzie said.

“What?”

“Yes,” Great Aunt Lizzie, “Uncle Tommy.”

Stunned, Jade really wished she was still asleep and dreaming of a ghost. She sighed. “I need coffee.”

“Tea for me, dear,” Great Aunt Lizzie said.

When they were seated on the porch with their respective tea and coffee—spiked with a dollop of mildornia wine, Jade said: “Now spill it, tell me everything. What happened to Alfredo?” 

“As I was saying,” Great Aunt Lizzie said, “After the Bunya’s death sham of a funeral, Jayzu was taken away. In a blue car. They say he was unconscious.”

“Wait, what?” Jade said, frowning. “Someone took him off the island in a blue car?” 

“For the love of the universe, wake up!” Great Aunt Lizzie said, and slapped Jade lightly with delicately embroidered silk gloves. “Jayzu went into to the city to officiate Henry Braun’s funeral. He never returned to the island. No knows where he went, except that he was taken away in a blue car.”

“A blue car? Where? By who? What about—” Jade’s eyes grew large. Her chest tightened as her heart beat quickened. “Oh no! My mother. She’s alone!”

“Yes!” Great Aunt Lizzie said, her voice triumphant with a note of exasperation. “Why else would I call you out of a dead sleep?” She put a finger on the rim of her tea cup, swiped off a small spot of mildornia. 

“Yes dear. Charlotte is alone,” Great Aunt Lizzie said, and licked her finger. “Except for a few hundred crows, ravens, magpies, and the like. And, to say nothing of insects and the things that scurry on the ground. As well, the Captain is back on the island, so she is not alone by any means.”

“I need to go to her!”

“Indeed you do!” Great Aunt Lizzie said. “But not now. In the morning, when it is light.”

Wuf,” Old Blue said softly.

She woke up with the dog’s cold nose nuzzling her fingers. Still in the rocking chair on the porch, the sky was the color of dawn. Disoriented, she rubbed her face with her hands. I must’ve fallen asleep down here. She stood and picked up the bottle of mildornia wine from the table, the Guardian Angle’s shimmering face appeared for a moment on the label.

Visions of her mother lost and alone, singing into the darkness, with tears rolling down her face intertwined with Great Aunt Lizzie’s animated face on the mildornia wine bottle speaking: “Wake up, child!… Time is running out!”

“I gotta call Kate and Sam,” Jade said, searching around for her cell phone. Not on the table, not in the pocket of her robe, she went inside the house. As she approached the kitchen to look there, she heard it ringing. 

Upstairs.

It was Kate.

“Alfredo has vanished.” Kate said. “He was—”

“I know,” Jade said. “I was just about to call you. Tell me what happened—all I know is that he vanished sometime yesterday afternoon.”

“Sugarbabe dropped a note to Sam from the Captain this morning,” Kate said. “Alfredo never came home yesterday from Henry Braun’s funeral. The Captain waited for hours at the Waterfront to take him back to the island, but he never showed up. That’s all we know.”

“So he just disappeared?” Jade frowned.

“Pretty much,” Kate said. “I’ve got my small yet efficient network of spies trying to find out if he anyone saw where he went, and with whom. And if the police were involved.”

“My mother’s alone,” Jade said. “I’ve got to get to the island. Can I get Sam to contact the Captain this morning and take me to the island. I really need to get there!”

“That’s a done deal,” Kate said. “The Captain’ll meet you at Sam’s this afternoon. And, Charlotte’s not exactly alone. Other than usual crows, the Captain usually docks at the island at night. I’m sure he’ll look after her til we find Alfredo.”

“Hopefully, I’ll be there too,” Jade said, “looking after her. Were the police notified? Not that we want the cops sniffing around the island.”

“No,” Kate said. “My aforementioned vast network of spies tells me no one has reported Alfredo missing to the police. Who would tell them?”

“Uncle Tommy, maybe?” Jade asked. She shivered. “Does he have to be my uncle?”

 “Looks like it, “Kate said. “But I’ll bet my law license Uncle Tommy is involved in Alfredo’s. He left me a message yesterday that Alfredo had asked for a leave of absence from his duties at St Sophia for a couple weeks. To visit his sick mother.”

“Do you believe that?” Jade said.

“Hell no,” Kate said. “Alfredo’s mother is dead.”

“Do you think he knows where Alfredo is?”

“Without a doubt,”  Kate said. “Anyway, the Captain’ll be at Sam’s around 1 o’clock. Come get me, and we’ll go out there together.”

They rang off, and Jade got dressed, threw some clothes and toiletries into a backpack, believing she would be on the island for a day or two at least. She called Mrs Flanagan. “I need to go into Ledford visit some friends and to deal with some estate matters,” she said. “Would you please feed Old Blue and WillowB til I get back??

“Oh course, honey,” Mrs Flanagan said. “Don’t you worry about a thing. We’ll take care of the critters and everything. Bertram and the men’ll be starting the harvest—they’ll look after the place.”

Jade flopped down on the bed next to the sleeping WillowB. “I’m going away, Mr B, but just for a couple days or so. Don’t worry! Mrs Flanagan’ll be by to feed you and Old Blue.”

Willow B lifted his head, his eyes like slits. He yawned, put his head back down and covered his eyes with a paw.

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Chapter 10

Degrees of Freedom
Book 2–The Patua’ Heresy
© 2025 Mary C. Simmons

The Captain

The Captain heard a woman singing in the early hours before dawn as he prepared to leave for MacKenzie for a couple of days. It was an old Scottish love song his mother used to sing when he was a young boy on the family farm in MacKenzie.

“That’s MizCharlit,” Sugarbabe had informed him.

The Captain smiled—as if it could have been anyone else. He left for MacKenzie before he could find out what Charlotte was doing on the cliffs above the river before the sun came up. But he wondered where Jayzu was.

None of the resident crows or ravens seemed upset at her presence on the cliffs—Charlotte had only been on the island for a few days, not long enough for her to establish any noticeable routines. All seemed well enough. And, she was singing. All seemed well enough.

The Captain pushed off from the river bank and into the strong, wily current of the river, whistling the melody of the song his mother used to sing. Her sweet clear voice sang along inside his head.

And we’ ll all go together

To pick wild mountain thyme

All around the purple heather,

Will you go, Lassie, go?

The Captain’s mother had been Patua’—and had helped his father grow an astonishing array of crops that kept the family well fed, with enough money for things like tractors, cars, clothes. His mother, Moira MacKenzie, belonged to the family for whom the town was named. She married Walter Shepard, whose family had farmed the area since the first days of the 1862 Homestead Act.

As a boy, Andy—as he was known to his friends and family, loved only the river. Whenever he was relieved of farm duties, he spent the rest of his waking hours on or at the river. He’d set up a little camp for himself along the small stream that ran next to the family farm on its way to the river. 

“Andy!” he would hear his mother call him home for dinner. As soon as he had eaten, he would be out the door on his way back to his private encampment. In the summer, when it wasn’t raining, his mother allowed him to sleep at his camp. He’d outfitted it with an old sleeping bag and tent of his father’s, and a pillow from his own bed.

He wasn’t exactly alone, which is why his mother allowed him, as a small boy, to sleep in a tent down by Spring Creek. Andy’s near-constant companion was a crow named Rascal, who looked after him when he was away from the farm. 

Andy’s father noticed the crow frequently on his son’s shoulder, but never mentioned it—as if it were as normal as having a dog at his heel. Father was not Patua’—it was something that was never mentioned, never discussed as if it just did not exist. But surely he knew both his wife and son could speak the language of the crows, though Andy knew without anyone saying that he was never to speak the Patua’ around his father, at school, or anywhere else except when he was alone or with his mother. They spoke frequently while he helped her harvest the fruits and berries she grew. 

Sam. 

As much a brother to the Captain as is possible for one man to be to another, Sam had never let on to anyone that he knew anything about the man, other than he ferried people up and down the river. Though Andy was the Captain’s given name, Sam never called him that when anyone was around, but always did when they were alone together.

Only Sam knew anything about his past.

Andy had met Sam through his sister, Sarah. They were high school sweethearts, and had planned get married when she became pregnant. Her father beat him up. Afterwards, Sarah hung herself from a tree in the family’s back yard.

After Sarah’s father’s thugs beat Andy senseless and tossed him into the river, Sam dragged his limp body into the Captain’s boat, paddled it through the swamp and tied it to a Bass tree. 

Andy briefly opened his eyes as Sam washed the blood from Andy’s face. He groaned; the blood and swelling allowed him to see nothing, and his mouth hurt. 

“Other than your teeth,” Sam said, “you don’t seem to have any serious injuries. I’ll row into town and get some food and water for you.”

Andy fell in and out of unconscious while Sam was gone. He awoke when Same returned. He sat up—grimacing, but not uttering a sound. After he had eaten the food Sam had brought, he said: “I reckon I ought to sleep on dry land tonight.”

Sam helped Andy off the boat, into the calf deep water, and up onto the bank. Though he ached from the tip of his toes to the top of his head, he had not suffered any broken bones. He peed blood for many weeks, however.

Sam brought Andy’s sleeping bag from the boat, and his bag of miscellaneous gear, plus a canteen of water. After unrolling the sleeping bag, he said: “It isn’t going to rain tonight, so you’ll be fine sleeping under the stars. I’ll be back in the morning with your boat. We’ll play it by ear from there—”

“I’ll be fine,” Andy grunted.

Andy’s injuries were not severe, and he was able to row his boat the next morning to take Sam back home. In the weeks that followed, he and Sam built the boat that looked for all the world like a tiny forest island that floated.

Sam had never told anyone that he had wrought the fantastic forest structure for the Captain’s boat in his art studio home that overlooked the river. He didn’t need to—it was completely obvious to anyone who had ever seen Sam’s sculptures.

The Captain’s boat was powered by wind, constructed so that the Captain could move the branches and limbs of tree-like canopy around as if they were sails. The Captain steered the boat through and across the river with a long wooden oar, only rarely did he turn on the outboard motor below the deck; and only when the river was too rough to handle with his oar and the winds too strong for his sails. 

It had been the Captain’s job to make it float, and he drew up a plan for Sam to follow. The forest canopy Sam had constructed in his shop would be welded to a metal frame that housed three pontoons—two smaller ones flanking a large one in the center that kept the boat lower in the water. 

Not only did it float, it was the only craft that could navigate the rugged and unpredictable currents around the island. The people of Ledford thought both he and the boat had magical powers.

The raised helm sat five inches above the deck which was lined all around with wooden seats covered with thick foam pads. At one end, the Captain stood on a small platform that extended out from the front of the boat, which terminated in a point just below his feet. In front of him was a console with a compass, a wind speed thingy.

The Captain lived on the boat—he slept on the benches, cooked on a small propane stove he stowed beneath them, along with cooking gear, tools, and a few, very few, personal items. During storms or cold weather, he unrolled the shades that otherwise stayed tucked up along the edges of canopy. Constructed of a very thin fabric that Sam had scrounged from a surplus store in Ledford, the shades were designed to keep the wind and much of the cold out, but let all the light in. 

Rarely did the Captain leave his boat. He traded transportation with some of his daily passengers for shopping and bringing him groceries., hardware items, rain gear—as he needed them.

Lost in TimE

I like to sit on the very edge of the cliffs and look across the river at the city, cut in half by the river. Charlie pointed a wing toward the right side and told me that is Downtown. Tall buildings sparkle like diamonds. The other side of the city—to my left—is mostly trees and a few buildings and Charlie says a lot of houses. A bridge ties the two sides of the city together.

Where the city ends, trees and cornfields grow—all among the rolling hills and small streams that join the river. I remember this city is called Ledford. It is upriver from where I grew up, in MacKenzie.

I don’t know how I got here or even where ‘here’ is. Charlie tells me we are on an island, but it’s much, much bigger than the little island in the stream that ran through our property in MacKenzie. And there were no cliffs or ravens.

Just crows. Mostly Charlie and me. And JoEd.

We looked down at the boats on the river together. I came to this island on a boat, Charlie had told me, but I don’t remember that. I like to watch the boats, wondering which one brought me here. 

“Oh, look!” I said to Charlie and JoEd, who were pecking at the cracks in the rocks under their feet. “A little floating island!”

Charlie peered over the edge and said, “That is the boat you came in on.”

I didn’t take my eyes off the boat as it got closer and closer to the island.

“When was that?” I asked.

“Just a week or so ago,” Charlie said. “You stayed in the Treehouse with Rika and me and JoEd and the other kreegans.”

“The Treehouse?” I frowned and shook my head. “I don’t remember that.”

We watched the small boat somehow ride through the large waves of the river and make its way to the bank. 

“The Captain ties off the boat where the water is not so rough,” Charlie said. “He spends nights on the island, and leaves at dawn. He spends his whole days on the river.”

The Captain returned from his trip to MacKenzie and pulled his boat into the Sanctuary. As he tied off, Sugarbabe squawked and flapped her wings. 

“Grawky, JoEd!” she hollered and flew off her perch. “What up?”

“Grawky, Sugarbabe,” JoEd said and extended a wing from his perch on a rock.

Sugarbabe brushed her wing against JoEd’s.

“I gotta talk to the Captain,” he said. “We’ve got a situation.”

“Yeah?” Sugarbabe said. “Hey, Cap’n—they gots a situation!” she hollered as he approached the two crows.

The Captain sat on the sand next to rock and raised his eyebrows.

“It’s Charlotte,” JoEd said. “She doesn’t know where she is. Or Jayzu—she forgot she knows him. And she’s afraid of him because she thinks he’s going to take her away somewhere.”

The Captain frowned. “Where is she now?”

JoEd jerked his head in the direction of the cliffs. “Charlie took her there—so she would be safe from her brother who is not here.”

“I see,” the Captain said, stroking the stubble of gray on his chin. “What would Charlie want me to do?”

“Food,” JoEd said. “She needs food.”

“I can do that,” the Captain said. “Is Charlie with her?”

“Yep,” JoEd said. “He hardly leaves her.”

The Captain stood up, with Sugarbabe on his shoulder and JoEd flying overhead, and headed back to his boat. Both crows perched on the railing as the Captain filled a small backpack with dried fish, bread, cheese, apples, and water.

After slinging the pack over a shoulder he said to JoEd: “Lead the way.”

Up on the second ledge of the cliffs, the Captain found Charlie and an assortment of crows and ravens. “Grawky,” he greeted them.

The birds flapped their wings in the return greeting.

“Good to see you,” Charlie said as he eyed the backpack, “and the food you carry. Charlotte’s nearby. She likes to watch the river from these cliffs. She feels safe from her brother there.”

The Captain squatted on the ground. “The brother who isn’t here?” he said, gruffly. “As in the Fat Penguin from the east?” 

The crows all cracked with laughter.

“The same,” Charlie said. “Jayzu calls him Thomas—the trouble is, this brother is Jayzu’s OverFather.”

The Captain laughed at the way Charlie described Jayzu’s boss. Having a superior was an alien concept to the crows and ravens. “Well, I’m taking Jayzu into the city tomorrow. He’s to say a few words over the dead body of the Bunya, and—”

“Praise the Orb!” Some of the crows said—those who had hung around St Sophia’s Cathedral in Downtown Ledford. “The Bunya’s gone!”

“Yes, Jayzu praised his god too,” Charlie said. “He also told me that Thomas is pressuring him to come here, to the island, which he says would be a disaster for them both.”

Charlie explained the entire story to the Captain as he knew it—from the pieces he had gleaned from Charlotte, about seeing Jade in the forest, and the not exactly truthful explanations that Jayzu offered—who was nervous that Thomas, and perhaps the police knew about his involvement with Charlotte’s escape from Rosencranz.

The Captain was a man of few words, but not much got past him. He remembered the day he had boated Jayzu back to the island some months ago. He had purchased a painting—a portrait he had purchased at an art gallery Downtown.

“My friend Jade painted this,” Jayzu had said to the Captain as he unwrapped it. “I do not know how, but this…this is Charlotte.”

The Captain remembered the painting. He felt at the time the woman’s face seemed vaguely familiar, and had forgotten the moment even after he had boated Charlotte to the island on the day she left Rosencranz. But his back had been turned the entire trip to the island as he managed the turbulence of the wily river; he’d had no time to study her face.

“And Charlotte saw it,” JoEd said, unable to contain himself. “She saw it in Jayzu’s cottage And she ran off and ate mild—”

Charlie held up a wing to silence his son. 

“We think after Charlotte ran off, she got hungry and mistook the mildornia for edible fruit,” Charlie said. “It tastes horrible raw like that, and she barely ate any. But when we found her, even that small amount of mildornia affected her memory. I have convinced her she is not on her family’s property in MacKenzie, but she doesn’t know how she got here or who Jayzu is.”

“And she’s afraid of him because she thinks he is Thomas,” JoEd said.

The Captain raised both eyebrows and started to speak, but instead he stood up and watched Charlotte approach. She stopped the moment she saw him and stared at his many tattoos of birds and fish and water waves. He stared at her face. Not just vaguely familiar anymore. The painting—yes, it was her, the Captain thought.

“Charlotte,” Charlie said as he flew quickly to Charlotte’s shoulder. “This is the Captain—he brought you here on the boat we watched come to the island this afternoon.”

“Andy,” I whispered after my eyes finally found his face.

“Stella,” the Captain said.

“Stella?” JoEd said, looking back and forth between Charlotte and the Captain. “Andy? What the—?”

“Stella,” I said, looking at the ground. “Yes, they used to call me that. Except for Charlie.” 

“We went to the same schools in Mackenzie,” the Captain said. “I had no idea, that  I —it was Stella—that is Charlotte that I brought here.”

“Do you know Jayzu?” I asked. “I don’t know Jayzu, I know Charlie, and now you, but they keep talking about Jayzu—and Rosencranz and I don’t know what they mean.”

“I know Jayzu,” Andy said. “Rosencranz is a hospital for those who are thought to be mentally ill.”

I sat down on a rock and Andy joined me. Charlie never left my side, and JoEd flitted between me and Andy.

“Am I mentally ill?”

“Some people thought so,” Charlie said. “Tommy your brother. Your mother.”

“Estelle,” I said, making an ugly face. “That’s why they called me Stella. After her. That’s why I hate that name.”

“Lot of folks who spoke the crow’s language wound up in mental hospitals,” Andy said. “Or worse. That’s why we keep it hidden…even from each other sometimes.”

“But who is Jayzu?” I asked. “Did I know him before Rosencranz?”

“No,” Charlie said. “He found you at Rosencranz.”

I watched Andy open his pack. Suddenly I was more interested in the food he was handing me than who Jayzu was. 

“Charlie thinks—I thought my brother Tommy—” I said between mouthfuls of ham sandwich and cookies. “—was chasing me—couldn’t let him find me so—kept running til I couldn’t hear him calling my—” I frowned for a moment. “—name.” 

My sandwich froze midway to my mouth.

“I was running. He was coming after me. He was calling…CHARLOTTE!”

I dropped the sandwich into my lap. The world seems to tip upside down for a moment. “No one ever called me that but you, Charlie. I was always Stella. Until—” I gazed back and forth into my spotty  memory.

“Tommy never called me Charlotte.”

Mildornia Research

At the rocky point, Jayzu shared his breakfast with Charlie, tossing the crow a chunk of toast and a bit of bacon every now and then. Charlie caught each tidbit deftly and swallowed each whole, to be chewed by the tiny rocks and snail shells in his gizzard. The priest tossed him another chunk of bread, with orange marmalade, and he swallowed that whole as well. 

“I love your bread, Jayzu,” Charlie said. 

“That is high praise indeed, knowing how much you prefer bacon.” He tore off a bit of meat and flipped it to Charlie.

“That goes without saying,” he said, after swallowing. “But your bread is truly remarkable.”

Jayzu took a drink from his water bottle and wiped his mouth on his sleeve. “One of my life’s most serene pleasures, baking bread.” He tossed Charlie the last bit of crust of bread. 

He looked out over the river, towards the bridge that connected the two halves of Ledford. The small island upstream obscured his view of most of it, but he could see the cables as they arced gracefully upward to the first tower of the suspension bridge.

“Charlie,” he said, suddenly turning toward the crow. “I understand Charlotte is having a hard time with her memory, but it is so difficult for me to understand how she could have forgotten me. How could she? I rescued her from Rosencranz!” 

“Well, it isn’t deliberate,” Charlie said as he hopped up onto the rock next to Jayzu. “She ate a small amount of mildornia—which can disturb the memory lattice. It seems to have affected hers—as if the past 22 or so years had not taken place.”

“How can I help her?” Jayzu asked. “Can I see her?”

“Bring food to the cliffs,” Charlie said. “I wouldn’t recommend that Charlotte sees you right now—she is terrified that you—as her brother Thomas—are here to harm her.”

“But,” Jayzu said in anger, “I would never harm her! I took her away from all that harms her!” He raked his hands through his hair. “How could she think that?”

“Maybe because you are both priests?” Charlie said. “We all know you are not the bad brother, laying a wing on Jayzu’s thigh. “This isn’t about you at all. It’s about Charlotte’s terrible years at Rosencranz and how much that harmed her. Remember it was Thomas  who led the white coats to take her away. We will try to heal that in a mildornia trance, and return her to the present.”

Charlie had told Jayzu about the massive database the corvids have kept over the ages, of Corvid and Patua’ genealogies, as well as the mildornia trance that facilitated the merging of data from the Keepers into the Archival Lattice. 

Fascinating, for sure. Jayzu had pictured three-dimensional structures within the confines of the corvid brain. Clearly an hallucination, produced by the mildornia and the syncopation of the chants.

“You can do that with mildornia?” Jayzu asked. “It seems now that her memory has flipped on itself—she remembers everything before Rosencranz. And nothing since.”

“Yes,” Charlie said. “She seems to be lost in her own lattice, in a time prior to her stay at Rosencranz. We call this a ‘memory dislocation’. Starfire has found some texts that refer to the Patua’ of old using mildornia to repair these. We are quite hopeful.”

Jayzu put his head into his hands. “I have truly ruined her life.”

“Well, let’s not be hasty, Jayzu,” Charlie said. “Charlotte was quite happy to have escaped Rosencranz. Starfire believes we can use mildornia to fix her memory. We are researching the proper dosage to restore memory—which  usually involves lattice repair. We aim to return her to the present, with memories intact.”

“How on Earth can you do that?” Jayzu said, a deep frown wrinkled his forehand.

“It is a rather uncomplicated procedure and we do it frequently,” Charlie said. “On crows, anyway. But we believe that within parameters, the effect on yoomuns is probably very similar to ours. And that our chants will work on the yoomun brain, the same as upon the corvid brain.”

“Within parameters? What parameters?”

“There are certain, ah—cultural differences between our species,” Charlie said. “Which could lead to Charlotte reacting to the mildornia in ways we cannot foresee.”

“What kinds of reactions?” Fear burst forth in his guts and began its ascent up his spine.

“She could lose her mind completely,” Charlie said. “And she could die.”

“No!” Jayzu said, surprised at his violent reaction. The mere mention of Charlotte dying was incomprehensible to his continued existence. “Mildornia is out of the question. It is too risky.”

They both turned their heads toward the sound of a barge blowing its horn on the river. Two short, three long. Old Ruby. 

“No. She has no idea—the risks—I—we—how can we be sure—no—I cannot allow her—” 

“I don’t know how else to help her,” Charlie said, ignoring Jayzu’s incoherence.

Over the years as Chief Archivist, Starfire had beaked the ferment and gone into deep trance many times. He had rooted around in the Archives for the ancient secrets of the Patua’, and had found the Portal—a grand discovery. The idea that Portals could be used between lattices tantalized him.

“I reckon we could access the oldest and hidden parts of the Archival Lattice,” Starfire had said to Hookbeak, Aviar of the Great Corvid Council before his death. “There are many secrets that lie in our ancient past.”

Starfire was eager to find a way to make contact between Lattices that are great distances apart. It had not been difficult to tether one Lattice to another when the bodies housing them are in close proximity to one another. The Keepers did that routinely. But what if a Portal could be evoked that allowed a Keeper to tether lattices that are not in close physical proximity?

Charlotte was another matter altogether. She was neither a crow, nor a Keeper. She had no training in the mildornia trance. Starfire had to find the correct dosage of the mildornia ferment, and the proper chants that would meld a Keeper with an un-trained yoomun. Even then, he was not entirely sure how to repair Charlotte’s memory dislocations.  

JoEd volunteered to help search the Archives for the proper dosage and chants for the yoomun/corvid tether. He assumed the position of a single Shanshu to chant Starfire in and out of the oldest Archives, while Charlie kept the raven tethered. Five hundred years was time enough to get lost in.

Starfire emerged with the dosage and chants they needed to put Charlotte into a light mildornia trance—according to the ancient texts. The usual dangers existed for corvids and yoomuns alike—overdose was one; another was that one lattice might subsume the other. 

Worse, if a trancee strayed too far or the tether broke, they would come to the boundary of physical existence, where one’s Earthly identity spreads out and becomes one with the All.

Most dangerous was the Grzhk, the Soul Eater, said to prowl these boundary zones. The existence of such an entity was mentioned only briefly in the Archives, but was feared to be hunting for the lost, the untethered, the comatose, the demented. Its purpose: to snuff the soul’s entire existence from the All forever.